Tuesday, February 20, 2007
just came back this morning. found out that i forgot about the man accting online assignment submission (i did the quiz already but did not submit) and missed the deadline. (i thought i would be back on mon - bah.)
also to find everyone of my age blogging about how boring cny is. i totally agree man. seriously there's nothing that we cousins can talk about. i started the ball rolling by asking some qian bian questions. but it only lasted for like the most 1/2 hr out of maybe 6 hrs. den it was just sitting face to face. (the adults are all elsewhere chatting) den to avoid some embarrassment of the "leng chang", just reach out for the goodies in front of you and munch. and munch. and.... Zzzz...... yea the process can help u kill at least 1 hour. hey. sleeping in front of them and not know anything is better than to sit there and play the i-look-at-u-u-look-at-me game.
everything seemed to change a lot this year. the "comfy" bed that i always sleep whenever i go back becomes so uncomfortable to sleep on. the house's becoming more and more empty. fewer people are coming back to pay ah ma a visit. i was like thinking so much in the dark cos i couldnt sleep and realised that everything seems to be making a turn for the worse. i felt that im starting to dislike the house, i feel unfamiliar to the house. what happened to all the fun memories I had. everyone has grown up, have their own families..some dont even come back anymore. ah ma's memory is failing too. my bro told me ever since ah gong passed away the family is not so closely bonded anymore. he's more observant in the sense that he realises the changes which i myself was oblivious about. guess im ignorant. (prob i just wanna avoid the painful truth)
indeed i had great memories with the house but the process of reflecting the past with regards to the present only brings sadness. i would not even want to come back if not for my ah ma.
hope cny is better for u guys. :)
pitter. patter. 3:51:00 PM