Saturday, July 26, 2003


HeLP!!!

i am now in the most deepest and the most barren well..where no one can reach me at all..who..WhOoo can even notice and throw a bucket down and save me? who has the strength to pull me up? clueless? same here..

i've seem to have become quite depressed these days..dunno why..maybe because of relationships..studies..actually god gave me an activity to brighten my days..but i took it for granted and didn't appreciate it..and missed it in the end..too bad eh..serve me right..and now i feel kinda..remorseful? heh..nvm..anyway it's over..and i feel that im awfully quiet than ever. i did not have any topics to talk about that i feel that there is no need to talk anymore. wad is wrong with me huh. i no longer have those very happy times liao ler..i have not really luffed for such a long timee..heellppp...where have my so called friends gone.. everyone seems to be..leaving. issit away from me?

i think wenfang is still a bit mad at me for not participating in the teachers' day performance. Im sorry!!

anyway, today, as the whole school noes..c.o had a meeting today in the morning..mrs lu..mr tan and mrs grace chua were there to talk about the rumours that were going round in school..of course they heard them..and they were concerned..firstly it was about the co disband thing..den the syf..and the change of conductors..it is now that they cleared the air..now into detail..mrs chua highlighted that co will not be disbanded!!! that idea has not ever come across superman's mind at all! the fact about getting a c.o.p-cum-sackconductor-cum-disband was not true..they were all rumours..they actually wanted to trace who was the mastermind in all these words..but they decided to forgo as it was time-consuming..well actually i first heard it from a bandman..bandman ok..and den from a lower sec of c.o..who claimed that she heard it from another person from c.o. whom she can't remember who. i doubt it.

and our present conductor mr lee..he is actually a replacement from mr yeo puay hien (our previous conductor)..he was not really our official conductor..and after syf i realised he was so inexperienced..coz he mainly teach pri school c.o..sec school was quite new to him..(according to wan sheok) we were supposed to get a new conductor in february..(mr yeo suddenly resigned at the end of last year and lied and avoided mrs lu) but because of the outbreak of sars..the matter was brought further on hold. den syf was coming..it was not the right time to change a new conductor when mr lee had been guiding us in the pieces all along..so now..after syf..we are getting a new conductor..and not because superman sacked mr lee..well well well...our new conductor is mr chew..who is currently the conductor for singapore youth chinese orchestra! and he'll bring 2 more teachers..actually other schools has more than 3 teachers in a orchestra..but our school...bo $$ lah..and of all ccas, c.o has spent the most money out of the school..mrs lu said other cca only spent less than a quarter of our amount..geez..

i heard that choir was celebrating so much upon hearing that co got cop for syf on that day. hmph. Anyway I haVe the AQ~~!!! mrs chua said, " people always ask, ' do u have the IQ(intelligence quotient)? do u have the EQ(emotional quotient)? but do u have the AQ? which is acquired quotient." which is a bit of IQ and EQ..long explanation..ask me if u want to noe more.. mrs chua also gave some more encouraging speech.. nice of her..she dressed quite well today too..not the unusual dressing..

for our c.o...mrs chua asked if we wanted c.o camps..or overseas trip..she also suggested some outings for our orchestra..well that was nice..at least we could go somewhere again..and probably we can get a newly made costume for our incoming public concert held in next year January..no more blazers..hehe..nice unique costumes..annndd..we are holding a farewell party for our mr lee..mebbe a bbq at east coast or book a place at seoul garden or sakae sushi etc..imagine the whole orchestra go..and book the whole restaurant.. haha..impossiblez..anyway we have 140 members..so i say things may not turn out so bad after all..

wednesday..have another outing with the c.o members to watch concert at night..hope it'll be fun!! and hope i can get out of the deep well..


feel so much better after typing it all out...


pitter. patter. 10:59:00 PM